I’m going to be completely honest with you. I have been doubting God a lot lately. Not doubting like “does He exist,” but doubting like “is God listening to me, and if He is the one true God, how come I do not know the answers to my prayers. Why is God keeping things from me? From us?” And in these moments of doubt and questioning I’ll look up and see something that amazes me.
For instance, last week I was doubting if God was going to answer my prayer about what He wanted me to do with my future, when I looked out my window and saw that my entire front yard was filled with flowers. It made me realize just how amazing God is. See, as humans, I think we often try to understand God with our tiny little brains. When God is so much bigger than that.
We are human. We are not going to understand everything. When you were a child, your mom told you to not touch the hot stove. As a child with a childlike brain, you may have not understood why she wouldn’t let you touch the hot stove. You may have thought that she was holding you back from something fun, or (if you were overdramatic like me) you may have thought that she didn’t love you.
God is kinda the same. He is our parent, and we can’t always see things in our life that would hurt us. So when God doesn’t immediately answer your prayer, He hasn’t left you (though it may feel like it). He’s protecting you or making you wait for something even better. “It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; He will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” - Deuteronomy 31:8 Even when it feels like God is nowhere to be found, He is right here beside you. He has a reason for making us wait for his guidance, He is not a cruel God.
This is where God’s creation comes in. I think especially if you haven’t heard the Holy Spirit in a while, it can be easy to start doubting if He’s there and if He is actually God. In those moments of feeling all alone, look around. You’ll begin to see flowers, stars, trees, people, animals, all the amazing things God created. This is God’s way of showing us that He is with us. Through His creation we begin to remember God is truly bigger than all of our problems and our fears and our doubt. “The life of every living thing is in His hand, as well as the breath of mankind.” -Job 12:10. That Bible verse really puts our lives into perspective.
So while this blog wasn’t as long, and it may not have made any sense, I hope you’ll remember this week, God is bigger than doubt. He will never ever leave us or forsake us, and He continuously shows Himself through His creation.